7th month...

there're always a lot of stories about this month.. like opening of the hell gates and spirits bringing the sick ones away..

well.. by today, there're already 2 people whom i know of had passed away... 1 is francis' grandma... i hope that he'll be strong as ever... the other is my great grandpa (mum's mum's parents).. he's 93 this year.... i managed to visit him when i came back to sg... he's barely covered with skin n little meat.. basically, all i saw was similar to a skeleton look-alike... i felt so terrible seeing him like this n especially on his life support equipment... i felt relieved for him now.. at least he wont have to suffer as much as in the past...

i guess the next person might be my great grandma... i guess she must be feeling damn sad over her husband's death... she seems healthier.. i really hope that she'll be strong now..

besides my great grandma, i've got another grandma (dad's mum).. actually i'm quite afraid of losing her.. but i'm not sure why too... maybe she had taken lots of care for me since i was young till now...

i was told by my mum about my story when my grandpa died... i kept crying when they asked me to pick my grandpa's burnt ashes (bones) and place it into some container (cant remember the common term used).. i can remember it quite clearly... oh man.. i cant bring myself to see my great grandpa now... i'm afraid.. dont know y... i think i will cry soon... maybe sunday... that's when we have to walk n walk n walk..

in the meantime.. i'll catch some more rest as i have just returned from the wake... n it's morning now... oh man... i have to be back at 7pm again... time to zzz...