old photographs...

did you recently flip open your past photo albums? u'll be very surprised by the amount of changes that happened to everyone... we age as each day passes... but... we wont notice the magnitude of change because this change is so minimal... however, by capturing those moments and comparing them to present, u'll be overwhelmed... the fact that u grew up(height), became prettier(hairstyle), and not so 'old-fashioned'(clothing).

i jus browsed through my albums a few minutes ago... they were complied by my mum... i mus really thank her for it... i recalled that there was this period of time when i hated to take photos so much!! it mus be caused by my mum.. i was always made to pose in front of the camera since young... that explains y... my smile was sooo natural before 7 yrs old... after that, i was expressionless in each photo... i guessed that lasted till sec sch days... lookin at my past photos, i realised how much everyone had changed over these years... i was so skinny when i was in pri 6... hmm.. i wondered what happened to me now... drat..

my baby photos... so cute... my meimei looked exactly like me too.. so chubby... but everytime i looked at her past photos, i'll have this piercing feeling in my heart... this always made me cry without fail... i wondered if i'm the cause of what she is today... she was such a lovely girl in the past... we always called her 'kai xin guo - happy apple in chinese'... even if u're angry or sad, u'll definitely cheer up with her laughter and smile... such an adorable kid...

my sister is a 'special' person.. i dont mean that she's a special person in my life... i'm tryin to say that she is different from many of us... her right brain lacks of oxygen since young, which resulted in failure of certain body functions... she's 14 this year, and can only make the 'mmm' sounds... like 'mama, papa, mum mum - eat'... i wont say that she's stupid, cuz she does remember things and sometimes understands what we say...

though my mum had once said that she knew of this condition even before she came birth to my sis, i still think that i sort of caused her plight... she's a very special sister to me... i know that i'll be taking care of her after my parents pass away... its my will, my job, my obligation... that's y whenever people asked me, why dont i wanna get an ang mo boyfriend... the main reason is that ... i need to be in singapore permanently.. to take care of my sis... i wanna fulfil the nanny role.. i dont know if i really owed her in the past life... if that is, i guess my whole family must have owed her a lot... but still.. she's my sister, n i will still love her... i hope that my ' future husband' can accept this... cuz if he doesnt, i guess that i'll be single all my life...

so.... go n have a look at your past photos... recap what happened in the past, and enjoy...